Living with PTSD

 I was raped when i was ten years old by my best friends dad. A day does not go by that i am not reminded of him. The smell of his cologne, the look of his hair, the way he laughed, the way he cleared his throat, the feel of his hand. A stranger comes up to me and touches me, a man walks past me, a student in one of my classes. Things that shouldn't affect me do...more than you will ever understand. I have nightmares every night and wake up crying because of this man. I relive this every day of my life and no one cares. I feel like no one really understands the extent of how this affects me. I feel so alone because no one in my family cares and thinks i am just trying to get sympathy. I find it so difficult to even get up in the morning. I just feel like giving up someone please help me...
XO-WB

To Those Of You That Have Saved My Life

To those of you that have saved my life so many times over thank you. I would not be the person I am today without you. When I didn't want to move forward and thought that it was the end, you helped me see the light. I  realized today just how precious life is. To these people i can never say thank you enough. I love you and I hope that I can make you proud with whoever i become. 

There are so many others that I have to thank but these are those that I have to thank for my life. I just want you to know that I love you guys for all of little things that you don't even think about but that mean so much to me :) ❤

Amanda: You really have been my rock, the person I could always go to if i was feeling down. You understood and didn't judge. Thanks so much. :)

Grandma Maxine: There are no words to express how much you mean to me. You helped me when I was in my darkest place and you did something for me that noone had done before...Loved me unconditionally. I know i didn't say it often but i am eternally grateful for everything you ever did for me and you will always be the person that I will look up to. You are my hero.

Uncle Steven: You took me in and loved me when everything was wrong. You cared for me though it wasn't your responsibility. You are such a great uncle. I hope i can grow up to be like you.

Kemrey: You are my cousin but you mean so much more to me than that. I can tell you anything. We have the kind of relationship where i am so comfortable and i can trust you with anything :)
XO-WB

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College :)

This is my life now! Going to school and surprisingly i have enjoyed it, it just isn't what i expected from college!